i got up at 4am on a sunday. excited for the week to start? nocturnal? hopeless insomniac? bionic? 85 year old posing as a 25 year old? scared i wont wake up? crazy?

i could use ambien but we remember what happened last time :( i cant handle the big kid stuff. a natural rememdy that works, and in general feels a little like xanax (which is nice and not intrusive) is Rescue Remedy's Rescue Sleep. great stuff for being plant extract.

but to the point, i got an email the other day and i actually do not know what to write back. there might be nothing to actually say but so much needs to be said. ive never felt this stuck before because i honestly cannot discern what the "right" thing to say might be.